Wow, coming from you that is rich. I guarantee you in the last 6 months I dont have 1/20th of the posts you have.
If you are too stupid to recognize this I feel sorry for you.
Day after day you start fights with whomever and whatever you can find. And the fights go on for line after line ad nauseum.
Stop deflecting, see a doctor.....even if you have to use TeleHealth because you live in PA and you are afraid to go outside.
Good luck, there are some good meds out there that will help.