...you might want to chill a bit...and join a dance class ;-)
Once you've settled down, find a copy of 'Blue & Gold Illustrated', then read Trevor Ruhland's insightful article...might give some strength to deal with whatever problems you. have. Once you're done, pass it along to Hawk...
Link: https://www.youtube.com/shorts/g8twsP1emn8?feature=share